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Murphy's Laws (as posted in Arizona Humor)

Murphy's First Law: Nothing is as easy as it looks .

Murphy's Second Law: Everything takes longer than you think

Murphy's Third Law: In any field of endeavor, anything that can go wrong will go wrong.

Murphy's Fourth Law: If there is a possibility that several things can go wrong, then the one that will cause the greatest damage will be the one to go wrong.

Murphy's Fifth Law: If anything absolutely can NOT go wrong, it will anyway.

Murphy's Sixth Law: If you perceive that there are four possible ways in which a procedure can go wrong and circumvent these, then a fifth way, unprepared for, will promptly develop.

Murphy's Seventh Law: Left to themselves, things tend to go from bad to worse.

Murphy's Eighth Law: If everything seems to be going well, you have obviously overlooked something.

Murphy's Ninth Law: Nature always sides with the hidden flaw.

Have you ever felt like you just wanted to die?So you wouldnt feel happiness,cos it only makes the sadness even more bitter.When your sad,you wish you  were happy and your kinda jealous of the happy times.Sometimes i just wanna die so that everyone who has looked down on me,despised me,discriminated me and controlled me will feel so bad on the inside lookin down upon my lifeless body.All the regret and realisation that i was more then what they treated me to be they feel would just be so satisfyin.Thats why i wish i can see my funeral and stuff before i go to hell,or maybe,just maybe,heaven.

The most fucked up thing about my life is that,everythin in my life gets built up,to such a sweet place,and then it gets fuckin shot down.I really wanted to get a car.Its one of those things you wouldnt mind sloggin day and night for it.And my wonderful dad says no,period.And im still supposed to love him,honour him,be grateful to him and appreciate him.I got 3 words for this.BALLS TO HIM!!That fella really knows how to fuckin make someone sad balls.He should be fuckin crowned prince of darkness,not satan.And the worse part is i know him,and he's not like that.Everyone knows he's a fuckin nice guy,a cool dude.I dunno what the fuck turned him into this sick,sadistic fuckin cunt. Im just so disappointed in him.

Another thing is stephanie.It was just so so so great in the beginning.I cant even explain how it felt like.But i made a mistake and neglected her.And now,its all going down the drain.And im tryin to make it happen and its not.Another disappointment.

Oh well,there's only so much shit that can happen in a person's life.At the end,im probably gonna be so hard that nothing's gonna affect me or id just run out and expire.And then i pray that id be disappointed no more.

IM writin this entry just fer the sake of writin an entry.Cos i havent updated in months.Well its hols not.Fucki results gonna be out on fri and i think im gonna flunk nicely..Power pack flunk coming up.And then army gonna suspend my contract fer 6 months.Knn cb i still haven learn frm ael sia.God please help me learn,why am i so goddamn adamant.

Anyway hols are damn boring.MY parents are you know,fucked up.So damn strict so i cant go out.I cant drive the car alone since the last incident.Everyday i just sit at home and wish something good will happen.

I feel incomplete or somethin these past few weeks.There's just somethin botherin me on the inside and i dunno what it is.IT just makes me sad and troubled.maybe its the results,maybe it the loneliness.NOt too sure.Hope to discover soon.

Yesterday,my dad was going to malaysia.So he let me take the car.This is a big thing cos he never lets me drive the car alone.So i went to novena with him,then i dropped him off at his friend's place.All his friends were like."aiseh man joel.Can drive already ar,".I was quite elated la.Then went town and met 2 friends and josh.We watched simpsons there and all was good so far.

After that i drove back to yishun and slept for a while.At about 6 we drove to east coast park.Ill never ever forget that place in my life.We parked and went to the chalet.At about this time my bro started askin me to go clubbin.I really didnt wanna go cos i was sick and just didnt feel like it.Felt weak and all.But in the end i just said ill go with him la.So we left around 10 i think.

We exited the carpark and the whole road was jam packed.It is the 2 way road outside mac's.So i wanted to have a smokecos bring mah in a jam.I asked my bro for 1 and he was like 'dont la later got the smell'.I said that the smell would have gone away.And then i had a mother fuckin brilliant idea.I saw the ciggy lighter in the car and thought 'hey ive never used this before.I wanna use it'.And so i pushed it in so it would get hot.When it popped back out i took it and put it to my ciggy.I saw the car infront of me move off.And i looked at the red filament lightin the viceroy super menthol light stick.I didnt see the car infront of me had already stopped.He had braked very hard.And then "BAM!!!" i dropped the lighter and i realised when i looked in front i had hit the car in front of me.

There was steam coming out of the bonnet and i could see it had caved in.I immediatly reversed,offed the engine and tried to open the driver seat door but it couldnt open enough fer me to get out.So i asked my bro to get out and i climbed out after him.I saw the car and got a fuckin big shock.The bonnet was fucked up nicely but the other car only had 2 small dents and a few scratches.I was shocked cos i was travelling very slowly.I didnt accelerate at all or even if i did maybe just a lil bit.From the time i moved off till the time i hit the car must have been a mere few seconds.I called my dad and mum and told them what had happened.I was just in a fucked up state.Thankfully the car driver was a nice guy.We exchanged details and all and talked abit and he left.I left too and my mother fuckin bro couldnt have followed me back home but had to continue with his fuckin clubbin.Like fuck sia.When i need him he leave me fer 2 fuckin bitches.Anyway,i drove,got lost,ended up in buona vista and then singapore poly and when i saw sp i just drove to school and from there i knew how to get back.

Upon reachin home my dad went down to inspect the car.I know he didnt believe i was going slowly cos the car was fucked up badly.Anyway,i have decided the really quit smoking.Just cos i lighted up a ciggy i banged the car in front of me.I thinkk enough's enough.Today went to meet the driver of the other car.He was okay,my dad talked to him and all.Everything seems to be okay.At the most change his bumoer.He is drivin a fuckin lexus and its those suv kids so its gonna be a bomb.My dad's car repairs also.I think total gonne be a few thousand bucks.I just hope nothing happens to my mother fuckin license.

So here's a lesson for all you people out there who are confident of driving.I was confident,i though i was good.Just 2 seconds my eyes were off the road i got into a accident.

ps:dont light a ciggy in the car.fucked up thing to do.

You know,everytime in my life,ive had shit thrown my way.Everytime.I have one wave of shit and as soon as i clear up abit of that shit cleared another wave hits me.Have you ever found yourselves in that situation?Dont you feel so helpless?Like you're damned to suffer your whole life?Recently ive just been smacked with a $200 parkin ticket and i need to do chores to repay my dad for the petrol money he lent me and i owe some friends a lil money.A million bucks now could really help me out.not even a million.A thousand should suffice.

Some times just keepin my head above the water is so exhausting.I agree most of my problems are self inflicted.But most people who do what i do have no worries,no problemos.How then can i be the one sufferin?But another thing ive realisd is that,everybody on earth and i really mean everybody has their shit to deal with.It ma not be the same kindof shit,but its shit alright.Loved ones dyin,gf's/bf's dumpin em,parents fightin or money problems are the type of shit we go through nowadays.And we think our live is hell,we are the only ones sufferin.No on else is in a worse situation then us.However,there are people much worse of then us.Countless people have problems closin on them form wall to wall.Small girls being sold as prostitues by fucked up parents,teens having to eat out of garbage bins cos they have not enough money for a meal and so many more fucked up problems are being faced by millions all over the world and we think we fucked when we dont have enough money for a kfc meal.Are we too pampered?Or is the standard of living so high here that we have adopted such a mentality?The standard of living cant be high because the mentality of the people here is still so low and barbaric.I think our mentality has developed over the years by a lack of major problems,thats why we are what we are,neglecting the everyday blessings in our lives.

Anyway,i think we should all take a good look at our lives individually.We take alot of shit granted.We should realise that we are fortunate to be here today,havin internet access and the time to read this entry while there are other of our age workin 2 jobs a day to support their junky parents.

PS:sorry today abit the emo la.not too sure why.

So ive got my driving license.Yeah,im fuckin glad.And the next step was buyin a car.Before i passed,i dunno why i was so sure i could buy a car.I was like i confirm gonna buy this car or that car.Now,my bubble has been shot down by a fuckin tank.

I told my dad i wanted to talk to him and all yesterday.He said he was busy so okay la,tommorrow then.After that i get a call from my uncle and he gives me one goddamn long lecture about not buyinn a car.Then today,the minute i walk into my parents room,i know im not gonna fuckin get a car.Even though im payin with my own fuckin money.I explained my case the best i could.I know its not a practical thing to do,buyin a car.Its expensive.But i really wanna get one.The feelin of seein ur car,holdin a car key and callin a car your own is definitely indescribable.My parents gunned down my dreams of ownin a car.Im just fuckin disappointed la.So many things recently have just let me down.Some friends,parents,My hopes were so high,sky high,and it smashed on the dirty fuckin floor like a melon.

I dont know what i can say to describe how i feel.Those of you who have wanted something so bad,so so bad,and you never got it.Thats what im feelin.Looks like disappointment is slowly but surely becoming a very good friend of mine along with sadness and loneliness.

God.He's the guy i went to when i had problems like most of ya'll."God,i fuckin lost my wallet.Please help me find it,".Like as is he was gonna come down from heaven and start searchin.Or,"god,i like that girl,please make her like me,".That was the lammest shit ive prayed for.Jamuna,my prayers didnt work.Anyway,im forced to go the church,sit there fer an hour,hear bout god and repentance and sin by some old geezer.But then i went for this church camp .

I was fuckin resistant.I mean,i didnt wanna change.I still dont.I know if i become holy and stuff ill be changed.I wont be the same ol Joel who everybody likes.I didnt do shit at the camp fer a day.Then after i while i thought since im here lets give it a chance.And fer some reason i felt happier,more at peace.The camp was all good and shit,ill fast forward it.At the end i felt like i was new,clean and all good.

And then i came out,and i started my old shit.And i realise that im back to where i was,square one.Like all the effort i put in is gone.Its fuckin easy to do bad things.When you're hard its so easy to give in and wank.When you talk its so easy to chuck in a 'mother fucker' here and there.But its goddamn hard not to sin.See,ive sinned again,ive damnned god.

I feel like my life is okay la.Nothing bad is going on(except for failing that car license.God forgive me, if i ever see that tester ill fuck him up so bad he wont know left from right).But like,something's missin you know.Many people would say you need a gf,thats whats missing.I dont agree with that shit.Girls make your shit more complicated.Most of em anyways.Findin one who likes you truely and you like her back is like findin an ice cube in the North Pole.Its almost impossible.You see the movies and see how people fall in love so easily and you think its true.It aint,thats why its called the movies.So yeah,about the emptiness,i know what has to be done to fill it.Drop all the shit im doing and turn a new leaf.But im scared to do that.I dont wana be a lifeless dick.Holy people would say 'you arent lifeless,you're full of life.You have god,'.But everyone else would think im lifeless.No clubbin,no drinkin,no smokin and no foolin with girls,Thats the kinda shit i need to be doing.And when im a lil older then ill settle down and be all holy.But that aint the way it works isit?

Anyhow,we all know what needs to be done to make our lives better.Be it leavin someone we love even though they dont love us back,or letting go,or in my case being a holy boy.We all know.Its whether we have the courage to do what needs to be done.It definitely wont be easy,it shouldnt be.But the shit we go through would make the good feeling better.Ill stop going on  about my epiphany here.Remember,you know what to do.Dont think so much about what could happen.Just do it :D

Feel kinda stressed out now.Got car prac test to worry about,common tests and my event management event to worry about.Fuckin caught smack in the middle of all 3 and none seems to be turnin out for the better.

I really dint have much to say,or rather,i dont feel like sayin much.Just think i need to screw someone soon.Haha,need to relax.I wish girls were that easy.Like  just pluck em of the street and get it on.Thats life i tell you

Well,today i wanna talk about some of the many truths in life.

First and foremost,relationships.Teenage love is so goddamn funny,ironic and weird nowadays.Hot hot hot girls go on with guys who look like if being ugly was a crime,they would be executed.Real ugly motherfuckers.I know im no brad pitt la,but seriously,girls you need to get your eyes checked.Another funny thing is,especially with indians girls,they love the gangster type.What on earth do you see in them?Practically no brains,no class and just all cock talk and fist action.Indians hotties love that type.I think malay and chinese too la.Lookin at these girls i get turned off by the lack of class and standard.The best part of relationships between teenagers is this;they have to ask "wanna go stead " before they are officially together.Thats freakin lame la.I mean like,you guys can like one another,go out,make out and do almost anythin.They can be mature and all that kinda stuff,but why does it have to come to a question to seal a relationship.This aint marriage,its not 'will you marry me?' Why cant they just go on without poppin the question?

Another thing about life is that,we all try our best to be happy.We study hard to get good jobs and get money and be happy.Wisemen said that money cant buy happyness or love.i say money can buy anythin,anything at all.You want happyness?Smoke weed.You want love,get a mail order bride or a hooker.If you have money,men and women will come for it.Money seriously makes our world go round.However,some people are virtuos and believe that money cant buy everything.Thus they have to find their happiness.Let me tell you something,you oh so upright people.Happiness cannot be found.If you go lookin for it,you will never find it.All of us are born with happiness inside us.If you truely wanna be happy(without being rich) then find the happiness inside you,cos if you are lookin for it,you will not find it and you remain lookin for it,thus remain unhappy.Its like lookin for treasure that doesnt exist,the only thing that exists is an infinite number of clues.So you search and search and search,never stoppin till you die.

Well, i find that in life,we always want things at the wrong time.We humans have probably the most fucked up sense of timing compared to anything else.Teens wanna be old,we wanna have our licenses,we wanna drink when we arent legal and we wanna fuck.These are things which are bad for us at this age.Older people,like out parents age can fuck,can drink and can drive.But they dont want these things.They wanna be young,they want a second chance at life.And since they cant get that,they make us the people who they wanted to be.We are their potter's clay.We are the puppets,they the puppet masters.They try their best so that we wont make the same mistakes as them,not knowing that teens must get burned to know that whatever they do is bad.For example,i know smokin is bad.I know i have a higher chance of dyin.Yet i still do it.Why?Cos i have not yet been diagnosed with lung cancer.

I think enough truth about life for now.You want the truth?!?!You cant handle the truth!!!

haha,lame

On friday night,ordered mac delivery and ate nicely.Then nick,mockingbird came my house.Salleh joined us later on his bike.We played soccer frm about 1 to 4 in the morning under my block.Fuckin shiok sia playin soccer at that time.Then in the morning went to school and met karthik and went for street soccer trainin.It was quite fun.i was in the same team as karthik and we won the tournament for the day.Not bad la,we played rather well.

On sunday morning went to play soccer at bishan.Soccer trainin with karthik and gang la.In the end we played a match with some chinese dudes who were there.They all look more like ruggers then footballers.All big size motha fuckers la.By the first half we were losing 3-0.Then in the 2nd half we made an incredible comeback and held them to a 3-3 draw.In the final minutes they scored one goal but they said since it was raining heavily that goal wasnt really counted la,cos like dam diff to play.Durin the match right i got injured.I was about to kick the ball,had already swung my leg with full force when one fucker slide in on me.So in the end i kicked the studs underneath his boots.Wa,fuckin fuckin painful la.Even now its killin me.Cant bend my toes.Gonna out a hot pack on it.Then we went to play counterstrike.Was dam enjoyble la.Me,kumaran and ashok in one team challenging karthik,rinesh and dhilshad.I think i was top frag in all 3 maps.

Tommorow school as usual.I wanna start studyin startin tommorow and enjoy my hols man rather then having the thought a failed common test paper on my mind.Anyway,hope my dad will let me buy this samsung mmo3 player.I currently dont have on now and thats ok,but having one will be awesome.Can blast nicely.Its cheap too,$218 for a 2 gb player.Looks like the ipod nano.

Time to sleepy sleepy now.Tired siol.